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Thursday, August 7th, 2008
5:43 am	Preventing the binge at 6:00 in the morning. (TRIGGERING) There's icecream in the cabinet. But I'm not going to do it. Lately- I use that term loosely, as it's more of a three month thing- I've been b/p multiple times a day. If I could have my binge right now, it would include the following: Huge, heaping bowls of ice cream. We have the homemade cookies with m&ms baked into them. I would dip several of the cookies into the icecream, using them as spoons. A half a tub of funfetti icing. Chocolate squares dipped in jelly and peanut butter. Marshmallow fluff. 2-3 Bowls of cereal. A grilled cheese sandwhich. More cookies. But, once again, I will "stay strong" and avoid this potential binge. The sad part of this whole matter, is the fact that I'm not doing it for myself. I seem to be having the opposite side affect of most bulimics, in that after several days of b/ping, I begin to lose my gag reflex. What a fucking frustrating conundrum. So I figure a couple days of staying strong, I'll pick ONE day out of the week and eat whatever the fuck I want. By that time, I should have my gag reflex back Current Mood: tired
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Thursday, May 22nd, 2008
11:04 pm	Ode To Mah Period (Or lack thereof) Anyone else here lost their period? Mine has been gone for a couple months now, and I feel an odd sense of accomplishment about it. Current Mood: blah
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Thursday, April 10th, 2008
2:38 am	114 today. Light Frapp from Starbucks. Coworker talked me into half a chicken strip and, like, five french fries. Probably won't lose any today. Current Mood: blah
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Thursday, March 20th, 2008
4:51 pm	This diet is really effecting my life. Oh, big fucking surprise, surprise, eh? In my Bio class, on both tests, I received the highest grades. (A+). On this test, I literally bombed. Sometimes it's hard to remember why I restrict and obsess over weight and diet. Just look what suffers... my grades... my relationships... my health. And yet I can't stop. School should be taking top priority in my life right now, but it's not, and that's shameful. I'm way too brilliant of a person to not me expendind just a little more energy into areas directly related to my future. It's seriously ridiculous. Well, if I'm going to have this, I need to learn to prioritize. Maybe I can use this diet to make my grades BETTER. IE to busy studying to eat. On the bright side, 117 on the dot today, which means, by the way things are going, I'll be about 115 tomorrow. After that, five more pounds to go. Let's just hope that I can stop at that. Current Mood: contemplative
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